Magnolia.

I always love Magnolia. I always think that this kind of flower is way more prettier than a bouquet of roses. That is too much for me. It's not because of the "Scarlet Heart" that makes me fall in love to this kind of rare species but instead, it started to become one of my favorite while I was little. Yea nobody know it, because this flower will never be that famous if the drama didn't showed up. 

Sometimes I think that I can just continue to being silly and continue my lifeless daily routine without thinking about the cruel reality which is just right infront of me. This semester break is the most torture break in my entire life. It is just only one month, or maybe more than a month, and now 3 weeks passed and I was like go and forth for the entire century in my life which can't be describe in words. 

Dreaming the same things again and again and ended up I was just like a patient who can't fall asleep in the middle of the disquieting night,woke up and facing infront of the laptop without browsing anything.I scrolled my contact list again and again and wondering who are the one that can listen to my nonsense at the middle of the night? Scrolling down one by one and end up I get nothing. I got no one, my life was full with loneliness and emptiness all of the sudden. 

I used to be a Magnolia, a flower that is hardly to create a connection with others, I don't used to be like a rose,which is very welcome to the public. Yea I am that weird,I love those classic old songs and Chinese music instruments and I think I'm madly in love with them. My friends think that I'm crazy and I'm weird but I don't really care about their perspective because I know even I try to change my style and my way I will end up getting myself exhausted. I  know I'm not a talent for that field. So yay, this is me.

I always wanted to find another Magnolia in my life. But I think it's kind of hard.. but I still put on hope and wishing him/her will be appear in my life someday. I love Magnolia because I think this flower is pretty much like me. A very unique and noble one. I hope I can be noble someday in my future. And I'm trying to.

All good things must come to an end

"A hug worth thousand words, a friend worth more"

I always love this sentence as I'm strongly agree with the meaning in it.A warm hug from a friend when you're helpless is really amazing rather than a long conversation on a phone chatting or coffee gossiping. I always hate going airport or some long journey train station because I hate the hard feeling of sending people off and all you can do is just crying out there and standing outside the gate watching the friends or lover go down from the escalator and disappear.

However, this is a part of our life and it can never be escape. The Genting BBQ and the midnight walk under the cool weather with you guys were so amazing and it has become the best memory of my entire HELP life. Do you remember how was the situation when we first met in the collage? Time flies and I know it's the time to Goodbye again.

We knew each other for only a short period, but I really appreciate and thankful to all of you for being a part of my life. When will I see you again? This is a non-answer question, because we will never know the things that is going to be happen tomorrow. But I do, I do hope that our friendship will not just stop at this point, it will be like a river, flowing and flowing non-stop to the ocean and the eternity. 

There are so many T-junctions in life, and we're making different kind of decision in different phase of lifestage, there is no reverse button for us, and move on is the only way for a better life.Although sometime we might feel insecure and hopeless, but yay, this is life.

I love you all.

Monday Blue

Hi people, how's the sleepy Monday treating you all so far? Oh well, maybe it's good for someone, but it's not for me. I was having a pathetic Monday blue for the last 20 hours.

I went for an interview in the early morning, which I don't think they will recruit me as I forgotten to bring the original copies for my certificates and they offer me a position which is not really related with my degree course. This is my very first time for interview and I know I didn't prepare it very well and my mind keep stucking when I was talking to them. So yay, I messed up.

I was trying to forget it after the interview session but I failed. So therefore, I went for a movie with the 2 sweeties, it's a nice movie and I really enjoyed it. But most of the time my mind was still thinking about the interview and started to yawning non-stop as the show going on.

 Men-in-Black 3, I didn't watch the last 2 episodes, but I found the guy in the middle was quite funny and intelligent. Oh well, I doesn't like the Boris in the movie, the nasty monster.

yuck!

And also, went for Celebrities for gym before the sun goes down. 

Should I just call it as a normal day for me? No, I feel exhausted and I feel like chop everything out of my mind and head on to bed like there's nothing will be happen and everything will be back to normal after the next day when I wake up. I used to worry for so many things right after my final exam, my results, my interviews, my works and etc. I told the interviewer I'm quite optimistic, but really? I'm just bluffing, I don't even think about positive side whenever things goes down and depress. I feel like jump off from the top of the building or hiding myself at the side corner. But I can't...I still have a burden on me. 

I know I should think positively, and seriously I'm trying to achieve it. 

But I never feel any better.

10.6.2012

I've been thinking to reactive my blog again but somehow I failed to do it and slacking all the times..until  now.

I wanted to reactive my previous blog but again I found it no where because I had deleted about a year ago, and I didn't realized it.. at all.

Alright, a new blog again created and hopefully you guys will enjoy reading it. 

Named "Everlasting" is such a meaningful word in my life, and that's why it appeared to be my blog title.

So, nothing much to describe in my first post, just a very simple welcoming "speech" to all my readers, goodnight and stay tuned. :)